? who am i ?

cant get to sleep yesterday night.. its already 3.43am n i m still awake.. thinking abt many many things.. many many.. so who m i now? ronnie? i dun noe.. coz i m sure tat the past ronnie isnt like this.. rolling left n right for 3 hrs to get to sleep but still cant.. some say i m a good guy, m i? now i m sure i m not, coz i broken the heart of some1 i love..

i said something tat really broke her heart.. see how bad i m.. ronnie is a "great guy", YA wat a SHIT man.. feel like escaping to a isolated place where there is nobody.. i noe i had been neglecting her.. busy working, spending time with my friends, family, myself.. i care for every1 around me, in the end neglecting her.. i feel bad n very very bad..

i told her "i dun wan to see u cry, coz u are the 1 tat i lay my whole heart on.. wat i promise n said 2 years ago still remains the same as it is now till the end or till i die.."

right here, i wan to make this a confirmation..

as u guys noe, i dun noe how to speak well.. i can say almost every1 see the happy, cheerful side of me.. joker, with humour, clown.. i moslty put a smile on my face, unless sometimes when i m working i will get a bit more serious.. but other than working hours i always put a smile on my face.. m i really tat? ok i admit tat, coz i wan to live life in a way with no trouble, letting the others see the beautiful side of life.. i keep things inside me, n of coz u all cant see.. i tried to solve everything, almost everything myself.. when friends are down, i wear a smile n console u.. telling u this n tat, maybe sometimes i nag, i dun noe..sometimes i m reserve, i keep quiet coz i noe u need time to cool down n think..

the past ronnie is patient, always not rushing for time, money is always not important.. had been thinking for a few weeks.. i would like to say "i m tired, i m really tired.." i need a rest, a long rest.. the life i wan is not really like wat i m now.. i was like wearing a mask.. i wan to take it out, right NOW.. some say i need to take things seriously.. "hahahahahaha" i noe when to take things seriously, it is juz tat i put a smile on my face to lower the tension..

who really noe ronnie inside out, i guess no 1.. coz sometimes i dun noe myself 2.. wat kind of life i wan? u noe? the only person i noe is me, myself..

guys i m alright, dun worry.. still alive.. the ronnie u all noe is still the same, skinny like a monkey, happy n cheerful..

sorry man, this is a sad entry.. but i promise the next entry will be a happy n cheerful wan, juz like the normal monkey-ron (Marco)

-->next entry on my trip to perak

(the simple life i wan) [a smile on u all face will brigthen up my life, especially charis]

Chalet & IMF event over.. later at night going..

Pics from the chalet..

me & her..

1 of my product, the corn.. but i dun noe y ricky's face is at the back, haha..

1 of my product also.. haha.. very nice wings..
haha...

haha.. went ecape the first day. at the water boat shooting each other..

very fun at the chalet la, miz it man.. so fast over liao.. then norman n melvin also cant go.. this is the first time tat 2 person can go lo.. last time is only 1 person didnt go only. like charis said this is like our annual chalet.. confirm got wan.. but maybe is 1 year 2 times ba.. haha.. happy times always pass so fast.. I STILL WAN CHALET~~

Activities lining up for me..

had been working almost all day long for the past 2 weeks liao.. damn tired, batery almost finish.. coz wanting to earn more ma, then got more money.. work for at least 40 hrs per week le.. didnt went out much also.. then also didnt spend more time with baobei, so guilty.. but she now after exam liao.. today juz went out with her, almost spend the whole day.. haha.. morning wake up at 10.30am then went to SIR building to change my passport photo and extent my passport.. in the end reached there, took my photo liao then i went to the counter, handed over my passport and the lady told me tat i had already change n renewed my passport the last time in march.. i was like "wat the.." haha.. MA LU!!!

next week got a lot of activitied for me liao..
sunday -- went chalet with my Sec sch friends, haha.. gotta be fun.. haha..
tuesday -- morning check out then had to go home change cloths and go for IMF at the Esplanade..
wednesday -- working full
thursday -- spend time with baobei and family..
friday (afternoon) -- go celebrate yanting birthhday
(night) -- go take coach go malaysia to attend my friend's wedding
--> i think will be 26th of september night reached singapore ba..

wa.. gotta faint..

Continue from the story of Mickey..

hope tat u had read the story of mickey from my pervious entry.. haha.. now is the continue..
as u noe mickey kept a cutter.. WHY?? sure u are excited to noe right.. haha.. here is the truth..

because mickey found out Minnie having an affair with Winnie the Pooh (tats y their name so close match Winnie & Minnie).. look at Pooh's face.. poor Mickey sitting alone at the side watching them.. tats y Mickey kept a cutter with him so tat he can kill Minnie for betraying him..

In the end the 2 of them of coz had a fight la, but i dun noe whether Mickey really got kill Minnie anot haha.. but not long after..

Mickey found another partner n it is piglet. omg.. wat a shocking ending.. haha..

hai.. the good doesnt stay long, the bad always stay long..

so long no blog since after my exam liao.. haha.. i first bad news i receive after the exam is tat tommy is transfered back to CWP liao.. hai.. Y.. maybe there is some1 who noe the ans.. then monday came a new manager, from J8 then WM.. sian man.. thought the new manager going to be nice or wat.. it is like, unexpected lo.. so act, act big(although she is really big in terms of SIZE).. haha.. order us to do this n tat.. think we all dun noe how to work.. plz lo she.. wake up her mind la.. suddenly our mr andy is like an angle liao.. haha..

then my buddy lester also came back to heeren liao.. this is a really great boost to heeren lo.. now if ming yang really come back, then really strong dao.. even knife can cut rock lo.. but still dun noe la.. although work with lester for 3 days liao, found him tat he still got the skills in him la.. haha, havent rusty.. haha..

today juz went to buy bus ticket, then go north bridge road there eat dao so full until.... haha..

ok la, late late liao.. lastly have to say a very big big sorry to my baobei charis, coz after my exam on friday i kept working n working, nv accompany her.. really sorry.. today morning then get to see her, after so many days.. hope tat she understand n nv blame me.. sorry baobei...